"3D PRISONS TO PRISMS IN 5D"

I am here to feel
I am here to be brave
I am here to break free
In the white light I’ll stay

I am here to heal
I am ok with being misunderstood
I am learning the new real
Seeing clearer than I ever could

…Beautifully broken
It was fate and I was chosen
To pull the veil, and it is now open

To transmute the pain into a higher purpose

To teach them, that the agony would be totally worth it

Leading by faith not by sight
Either way I still vision light

I am meeting “her” …my higher self
I know what she’s thinking
“Man, that girl gave me Hell”

No longer hidden nor ashamed

For I’ve learned to sit and RESPECT the pain

No longer silenced and meant to feel small

Now it’s my turn and I’ll have it all

I did the deep inner work
I even broke all the cycles

4yrs old, staring at the end of a rifle

I thought I was without family nobody to show me how to get by

Oh but, I had Spirit, my Angels, Ancestors and even Guides

Infuriating that he was supposed to be my dad, my protector, my hero

Imprinting the broken stencil of a man on my heart

Thanks a lot DAD, now I only attract PURE EVIL

Lined up my mom, sis, and I,

Then I heard a devilish voice once say,

“We’re all going to die,

but which one of you will be first today?”

My 6-year-old sister saved us by calling my aunt.

“Daddy’s going to kill us”

I’ll never forget it……I just can’t.

I imagined or completely dissociated

But it all went black after a loud pop.

All I could think is “Will this torture ever stop?”
So violent & full of rage & hatred

But, How can you steal your child’s innocence,

It’s so damn sacred!!

He constantly drove under the influence & would be so erratic behind the wheel

Saying “we are all going to die tonight”

Now every time I get in a car that’s really how I feel.

When somebody else drives me at 38 years old,

They always think I’m crazy because they don’t know the painful memories I hold.

I still panic like I’m that 4-year-old little kid

You’d never imagine how many sick nightmares I’ve actually lived.

There it is …. why I couldn’t trust men.

Then all I did was repeat the same fucking cycle over again.

I fought from the moment I was born

My heart on my sleeve was repeatedly torn

Stitched back together through religion.

Not healed so with every relationship was my father’s repeated lesson

The stitches of his wound was never fully closed

Therefore, in every guy I loved
My dad would always show

So many scars, lessons, and confusion

To live in fear, & only attract the abusive

I used to hate when they’d say I reminded them of my pretty momma

Honestly, I'm so over the hand me down PTSD & trauma

After 3 abusive relationships I thought I’d never love again.

I was so reluctant at first, cuz he was just an old friend

I obsessively replay that one moment when

I looked him dead in the eye said “Nope, Not Today Satan!”

Thought I had found the one
For once, I finally had tears of joy

Known him since I was 11,
Funny story …. he’s still that little boy

He didn’t just rip out my heart
All promises plans and dreams were out the door

Look at me now, my soul is that shattered glass on the floor

He didn’t just break my spirit
But shook my faith to the very core

Nothing makes sense, and
I don’t even know who I am anymore!

Scrapped my heart that he once promised to protect

By the time he was done with me
There was nothing left.

Like my father, I just wanted him to love me

I’m starved for love,
Why didn’t they want me?

He tore my life to shreds
It’s cool though; I was already emotionally dead.

He took off with my love and gave me the knife instead.

That machismo bullshit isn’t fucking culture!

It’s a misogynistic excuse for them to be vultures!

Even after he just put the knife in my back
I was devastated, traumatized and humiliated

To say he ONLY left me, is a motherfucking understatement.

Trying to get it together cuz my girls are in the other room

I had to at least say goodbye cuz I knew I’d be dying soon.

My daughters miss me &
I haven’t said a word.

I knew this abandonment they definitely didn’t deserve.

I’ll forever feel guilty for not showing up for them,

...but you see my spirit this time was truly completely broken.

There’s no excuse for getting their hopes up too.

Got to escape this mental prison that POS put us through

Every version of me deprived of safety and truth.

It was then that I heard "be unapologetically YOU!"

Crying day & night
the dawn one day lit my tear

Something inside that prism kept saying,

“It’s peaceful over here,

First you must forgive them,
Then forgive yourself,

For believing that’s all your worth and yes,
It will actually really help”

The dawn in my tears & mosaic glass scattered on the floor.

Now I could finally feel the rainbows and see even more!!

My heartbreak now understood & chaos was eventually tamed

With gratitude my inner child finally learned to no longer fear the rain

She interlocked her little fingers now our beat becoming the same

"We're finally safe from them! Damn, We're so brave!!"

Our first dance as a whole person all because we alchemized the pain

We pranced around in puddles of hope and freedom, FINALLY....We are both proud of who we became!!

I had done the unthinkable, I transmuted the pain into my life purpose.

To protect my bloodline, and higher self YES the wait was worth it.

I am that scared kid who finally said enough is enough.

I am the mom who said I’m human too damn it and it’s fuckin' tough

I’ll never be the same
Such a gruesome ego death

cuz I’m breaking these 3D chains if it takes my very last breath


My scars are still there, no need to hide them anymore

Cuz When my future bloodline calls for back up,

You already know who they are calling for!

I’m an alchemist, a creator and a healer

That power has always been within me,

My higher self is finally seeing clearer

why she never fit in the prisons of the 3D

Following her call of who she was always meant to be

the Light who helps others ascend into the Prisms of the 5D

-Queen Li

"STILL" Began 2023 Finished 2025


The time is still. The pain is still. The loneliness is still.
I’m still unlovable. I’m still alone. I’m still too much. Yet still not enough.
I think that’s what I want now. Or maybe I’ve learned to accept it all.
That it’s gonna hurt, even when I get back up, cuz I'm still gonna fall.
I think I don’t have a choice but to want what I’ll always be,
to be alone, yeah that's still my destiny.
That was the last time. I’m done. I’ll never love anybody again.
Even if I really met the total package, it will still never be him.
This is the only way I protect my kids and my heart this time
It'll be a luke warm life, pretty boring, never again will I shine
So the early bird special bitch gets his cold vanilla lying ass
He'll still do what, when, where, and who he wants he always has

Look at him, still showing off that disability
I still think it was great when it was but only because of me
I am so deprived of effort, still starved for love
Now the effort comes from within and love comes from above
Im still hurt, still dissappointed in the man I thought he was
I still know he never loved me, no it was just lust
I look back at our videos and still see that sparkle in my eyes
Looking in the mirror now, the pain I'm still try to hide


Hey prick remember me?
I hear you now, "Oh God, here comes 'QUEEEEEN LI"
I'm not enough, but still way too much.
Go ahead, have another. It's just a crutch.

You still don't know what the fuck you want bro? You just need to be the star of your own shit show
News flash, you've been canceled
Oh and that spotlight honey, oh it's handled

Still it all blows, the wasted time, energy, and years
I still hate myself cuz secretly I wish the "real" you was here
Still, I would not have found me though
By still being too much, it pushed me to finally LET GO
Still time goes on, even if the pain is still there
Still I am alone, but at least I am going somewhere


The other day someone told me all these wonderful things that I never thought I'd hear
You did so much damage, I didn't know how to respond, cuz all I thought was "Is he really sincere?"

"I cannot understand why somebody would not want to be with you."
I couldn't comprehend what TF he just said
"You are such an authentic person. Your vibes are great. You are beautiful" And yeah after hearing "You're a very loveable person" Some tears FINALLY shed


When he speaks I feel his sincerity, even if your bullshit tries to creep in
His heart I can feel and now I realize mine is racing once again
Every little effort I still think he doesn't even think I notice
I actually still am capable of loving someone else and now I know this!
I may be too much for you, but maybe a real man can handle me
I know even if he turns out to be just like you,
******I was always enough, ******
******I'LL STILL ALWAYS BE.******

"Wish Upon A Star"

I’m that dangerous energy zooming across the dark blue depths up high
He’s that comforting last sentence of all the unsung lullabies.

I’m his long awaited thought inside his head
He’s all the kind words that nobody ever said

I’m the secret he should have never kept
He’s the kind of safe that really did protect

I’m the nonsense he really did accept
He’s the one who would have never left

I am his favorite broken crayon
Held gently, not pressed hard down on

I am broken but his favorite shade of blue
Yet, He still held me like I was brand new

He is somebody else’s “never was he seen”
Maybe he was meant to be only in my dreams

But in his arms, and in my eyes, he's the best
And in my heart, I know he is different than the rest

As our consciences’ fade together into the same safe space
Just cuz we do not remember those moments, does not mean they are a waste

Our souls undeniably intertwined
Our connection is one that is hard to find

Allowing our walls to fall is what we needed to learn
Giving ourselves permission to feel something we always deserved

All we know is both are thanking the above
For finally granting us this gentle pure love

His wish upon a star
My "So, this is why I came this far"